Saturday 11 April 2020

Midnight Musings in the Wake of COVID-19 Crisis


I step outside my home, to survey the eerie environs of the main road, which is usually astir with activity even at this time of the night.

I spot a pack of stray dogs squabbling over a piece of food. When they sight me, plodding by the side, they cease their contretempts and cock an eyeful towards me. I detect an unusual glint in their eyes. My heart skips a beat. It isn’t something that I haven’t experienced before. I have had far more animated encounters with the canine species since the days of my boyhood, when I used to out-cycle, with impeccable ease, chasing dogs, at Five in the morning en-route to Rosario’s Academy for the morning Chemistry tuitions in preparation for my High School Board Examinations. The dogs however caught me off-hand several time when I was on foot, particularly near De Monte’s colony beneath the flickering street lights. In such cases, I was spared but not before pleading to the mercy of the dogs. It was just barking and growling while I used to walk back home, but not before ending up chilled to the bone. However on this occasion, there is no barking or growling. Just silence, as the dogs unanimously look at me with snarling teeth. This time the experience is far more terrifying.

I move along the road, and see cats of all hues crossing the street, with a touch of authoritativeness which was unseen in the past. An age old adage goes – “While the cat’s away the mice will play”, and it does seem the cats now enact the part of the mice, while the human cats lie locked down at home. I generally take a more kindlier view of the feline race. I stop by near a pert and plumpy cat, taking a breather in the middle of the street, as if it owned it. Cats usually shy away from humans and mind about their business. I respect them for taking this stand of bonhomie. But on this occasion, I discern a thinly concealed air of hauteur in it’s demeanour. The stolid cat in question refuses to move, comfortably ensconced. I am fairly bothered by this display of irreverential insouciance. Maybe my disconcertment is unconfounded. It might just be the curious case of the cat that is scanning the street gutters for rodents from its seat of poise. But I continue to be flustered as I trudge along.

Talk of rodents is enough to render a man with finer sensibilities such as me off colour in itself. The sight of one can get me even queasier. However the sight of two of the largest bandicoots I have seen in my life, sauntering by my side on the bylane, is calculated enough to bleach my hair. Absolute whackers! Again the distress caused here emanates more from their overall comportment, rather from their presence or size. I am very well aware rodents being largely relegated in their status to the dregs of fauna, don’t roam on the loose despite being unrestrained. True they wallow all their lives in putridity, act as carriers for pandemics, but for sure don’t possess the gall to roam about at large without caring two hoots about the world. Even when they have to come out of sewers from time to time, they quickly slither back into burrows and try to avoid contact with humanity. The fact that despite spotting an approaching human, they choose to traipse on the sidelines with panache is cause enough for distress.

As I moodily walk back home, I strangely begin to realize that the trysts that are lined up will begin to alter my notions in significant proportions. I can hear at once a gallimaufry of sounds – The baritone of a braying donkey couple of avenues away intertwined with the unfettered bovine mooing in motion, offset by the contralto of hungry frogs as friendly woofs from invigorated dogs enjoin in accompaniment.

As I take a short detour to a relatively bosky and tree-serrated cul-de-sac on the left, an avian melody awaits me. An assortment of bird sounds rend the nocturnal air. The mellifluous squealing of mynahs marries the soprano of cuckoos. The euphonious twitter of sparrows countervails the squawking of parrots, as the hooting of owls binds with the cawing of crows. The bird world sings in all its glory, as the nests of the trees, metamorphosize into stages of musical delight. There is no obfuscation by human induced cacophony.

I look up. The sky is noctilucent as the refulgence of the moon spills onto the street and illuminates it. The pellucidity of the un-polluted air paves way for sighting entangled constellations which concurrently opalesce in the stelliferous firmament.

As I head back into home, I realize I don’t want to go inside. I prefer to stay outside and immerse myself in the immaculate heraldry of flowering bestiality and the splendour of nature and lie inextricated sempiternally. My whole view of dogs, cats and even rats tergiversates as I realize this is but a microcosm of the way the world functioned prior to the invasion of Homo sapiens.

This will not last long. Once the battle with the virus is ineluctably won, a pyrrhic victory no doubt, we will be back to usurp power, wresting it from its rightful owners, weaving daily sins of commission, leaving the world crippled again under acts of esurience and despoliation. The short lived reign of the 'Kingdom Animalia' will end, and the sky shall not be as pristine as it is now.

But till then we should make the most of the remaining days of this black swan event which has pulverized the world, and bask in the one irrefutable good that it has brought with it – Solitude and Peace.

Thursday 9 April 2020

Crossed Wires

A mangled heap of wires
Black, thin and rubbered
Lie in my palms
Menacingly intertwined
Seemingly inextricable

The more I try to unknot, the more I tilt at the windmills
The more I try to cut the Gordian knots, the more I end up in tangles
Try as I may to unweave, I enmesh into a new-fangled mess

The fact remains
Music shall avoid my ears
In Solitude, though possible, it may still
Enter into different ears if I decide to sodcast

Do I want it?
I don’t know

I give up. I deliberate
The extrapolation of the crossed wires
To more bombastic proportions of entanglement

Where wires lie crossed
Over the troubled waters of life

Can I re-purpose the tangled assortment of problems
With the vast multitude of people?

Should I let my music
My soul music, meant solely for me
Out to the unwilling world?

Or should I move heaven and earth
Fight tooth and nail
To extricate the wires
And let myself immerse in plaintive melody?

Assiduous attempts I can still make
But they still may fling me back into an abyss of nothingness

A vexing conundrum indeed
I have made up my mind
I shall temporize
And swim with the flow

Either I will reach
Fate’s grand old paradise
Or dystopify into hell’s excruciating tunnels

I will not regret if it’s the latter
I will rejoice if it’s the former

If it is eventually the latter
I will brave the tunnel till
I get to land’s end where I can
Gambol into the greensward of the former

Either ways, life will sort itself out

Will the memories ever fade?

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